Hi I am from India, 32 years unmarried girl, deeply involved in a loving relation with a married man. Inspite of knowing the fact he is married I fell into love, please don’t misunderstand me, I want some guidance, I can never forget him and having a lot of pain. As I am trying to marry someone else, this person fore played with me but not done intercourse, as I told him not to do anything else. Please don’t take me wrong, I truly loved him, he says I should get married and he will be with me like this forever. I am unable to understand why God has given me such trauma, I worked for 10 years in the office and now I am nowhere. I am still unmarried, still virgin; again jobless and some time feel like committing suicide. I want to make my self happy. All my feelings are ruined and I can never love anyone, how to pretend to love my would be husband, I don’t want to break my friendship with this man as I feel he can’t misuse me like this. He also says he will be my friend forever but sometimes I feel he is just bearing me as I know everything about him or may be feeling pity on me as he realized I love him badly. He commits he loves me too but can’t leave his family. Please suggest me how to live my life. I have always been a happy person. Everyone tells me to leave him and it gives me a shock. How will I face my husband that I loved someone and can’t love anyone else? I know this person is happy with his wife and kids and I am dying day by day, Please save me. How to forget him, sometimes I curse him which I don’t want to. He has many of my pictures which make me tensed too. However they are not nude.